Fake Friends

So i have some pretty good friends but i have a few that just pretend to be my friends... when they want something. I have one "friend" that only talks to me when she wants a ride somewhere or something like that. When i'm not offering to give her a ride or bend over backward to make sure she's happy she doesnt want anything to do with me. IT MAKES ME SO MAD!! Its bad enough that my real friends are drifting way because of who their dating or because i'm always with dalton (not that thats a bad thing!!) Anyway i really cant stand people who dont like you unless you're giving them all of your attention!!!!! IF YOU'RE GONNA BE MY FRIEND DO IT BEACUSE YOU LIKE ME NOT BECAUSE YOU LIKE THE FACT THAT I HAVE A CAR!!!!!

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so i finished reading fang!!!!!!!!! I AM SO MAD AT THAT STUPID BOOK I WANT TO DROP KICK IT! im very glad my sister didnt buy it for me if she had i would be outside watchin the sucker burn! im very unhappy if there isnt a new book after fang i will be very very very angry!!

Book Nerd!

So i don't really have anything to blog about today. I'm gonna have a book nerd moment and blog about the book i'm reading! It's called Fang, it is number 6 in the Maximum Ride Series. I really love all these books. They're about kids with wings they are 98% human and 2% avion. So far i really like Fang. I get way to into my books so i've been tempted to throw it at the wall more than a few times. I cant believe i actually found it at our public library. I really dont like the library here most of the books are really old and they dont buy alot of new stuff. the library at my school is the shiz though. oh and btw Dalton got a job. yesterday we went to terre haute so he could get his check and we looked at rings again ♥♥♥ hopefully i will have one soon!

Call me crazy but...

i'm like unofficially engaged. unofficially meaning that i dont have a ring yet but i will. I dont even really know how it happened. D has always introduced me to his friends as his fiancee and well now its true. i know i'm only 17 and all the other things you could say while you're callin me crazy but i love him with all my heart and i cant picture my life without him. Lately all we've been talking about is rings and he thinks i should have something that cost him at least full pay checks. He doesnt seem to understand that to me an engagement ring isnt about how much he spent on it or what size the diamond is. to me its about the 4 words he says when he gives it to me and the feelings that go with wanting to say those words. i want something simple and beautiful that came from him. it doesnt have to cost alot of money and it doesnt have to come from one of the big jewlrey stores. I love him no matter what the ring looks like and he doesnt need to try to impress me with it i'm already impressed by how much he loves me and by how much shit he has gone through for me. i want the day he asks to be a day i'll never forget. it would be amazing if it was at night under a sky full of stars at the park where we met/first kissed. idk if it will happen that way because its all up to him. when i think about it my eyes start to tear up (they are now even though he's sitting right beside me while i am writing this) i love him with all my heart and i dont ever want to lose him so call me crazy for being engaged at 1 but once you find the kind of love that makes you speechless and weak at the knees i think you should hang on to it with all you got.

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hey, i know i talk about my boyfriend alot on here, sorry if its annoying but im about to do it again. Have you ever felt guilty for something that you know isn't your fault? Thats how i'm feeling right now...Dalton is having a really bad night tonight and i know he really needs me there. but i cant be and that bugs me way more than it should. my dad is a nazi and wont let me go anywhere after dark because of all the evil monsters that lurk in the darkness or something like that. Anyway D's parents are fighting and i guess its really bad and he is freakin out hard core. His response to stress like that is to want to smoke pot. Which is something i asked him not to do and as far as i know he quit completely. But tonight he asked if he could and i said ok ( he isnt going to) but just the fact that he wants to makes me feel like s**t i'm hardley ever there for him when he needs me cuz im always stuck at home. i know it isnt my fault that i cant be there but it still makes me feel really really bad. i love him with all my heart and i want to be with him every second even when he doesnt need me but when he does and i cant be it makes me feel so bad. i can never find the right words to say to make him feel better and i know being there would help even if all i did was hug him...i really hate this...

Spring Break!

So my spring break was rather good. I worked almost every day. I really love the kids at my new day care (paying job yay) i feel really sorry for three of them because their mom dropped them off with Becky (my boss) and said she didnt want them anymore. They are having a hard time adjusting especially the youngest one. Anyway that was fun and i got to see D almost every day. Thursday night i went and stayed the night at Breanna's while D went off to Ashmore to do god knows what. But Bre let me paint her stuffed monkey and it is now a girl monkey cuz i said i wanted it to be. Friday we went to Terre Haute and spent our pay checks shopping. Breanna got this guys number he was REALLY hot. I'm talkin like 9 kinds of bangin lol. I didnt get any numbers :( but thats ok cuz 98% of the time i like my boyfriend lol. Anyway i went home Friday and on sunday i went to my sisters wit the family and i got 3 eggs cuz i didnt want to steal from the kids cuz im nice like that! It was really fun and im glad my sisters seem to be getting along again. Gotta go do research for my 6. PAGE. PAPER. AHHHH!