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hey, i know i talk about my boyfriend alot on here, sorry if its annoying but im about to do it again. Have you ever felt guilty for something that you know isn't your fault? Thats how i'm feeling right now...Dalton is having a really bad night tonight and i know he really needs me there. but i cant be and that bugs me way more than it should. my dad is a nazi and wont let me go anywhere after dark because of all the evil monsters that lurk in the darkness or something like that. Anyway D's parents are fighting and i guess its really bad and he is freakin out hard core. His response to stress like that is to want to smoke pot. Which is something i asked him not to do and as far as i know he quit completely. But tonight he asked if he could and i said ok ( he isnt going to) but just the fact that he wants to makes me feel like s**t i'm hardley ever there for him when he needs me cuz im always stuck at home. i know it isnt my fault that i cant be there but it still makes me feel really really bad. i love him with all my heart and i want to be with him every second even when he doesnt need me but when he does and i cant be it makes me feel so bad. i can never find the right words to say to make him feel better and i know being there would help even if all i did was hug him...i really hate this...